Appreciate. Help.

Stubborn.
It's no secret to friends and family, I've always been a little stubborn. I think it's a common trait among actors, musicians, and artists alike. Though a lot of it is just how I came out; ready to explore, succeed and fail (Usually not admitting that if I had taken advice I could have succeeded). I have this vision in my head of the way I want to do things. It's sometimes the harder way, actually it's often the harder way. To a certain extent I've let that go and accepted that I am going to walk in someone else's footprints at a point. At the very least I've learned to be quiet about it and truly listen to advice. Now, I beg for as much input as I can get. I may not follow it all and I will still stumble along my own path, but I'm a little bit wiser as I do so. :)

My advice...
Ask for advice and help when you need it. There is a time to be stubborn and a time to say, "Hey, I'm stuck here or I'm unsure about the way to approach this." It's not a weakness to need a helping hand.
If you are lucky enough to have people in your life that will help you along your path then accept their help and be grateful. I am thankful every day that my parents have been supportive in my career choice. I am in a position now where I need help more than ever. There's that inner desire to make it on your own and be completely independent. I'm doing my best and I'm ready to work hard for what I want. It's still difficult to say, "I can't do this without help", but if I were to shut off that line between us I would be drowning right now. I'd be sinking in my own fear, panic, and realistically debt.

I wish it was easier.
This is a thought I have so often. I think it and then I immediately let it go. Wouldn't it be easier if I had chosen a path that led me to a stable career. In certain aspects, yes. It would be simpler if I had wanted a job that gave me benefits, a reliable paycheck, and long term security. That's a given answer. I have "chosen" one of the most difficult careers imaginable. Those successful actors you see on T.V. and in the movies, they work their frickin butts off. They make it look easy, because they are that good! (Not all of them of course, some are just blessed with being the perfect package) The great actors work every day improving and learning. It's not easy, it's never going to be easy.
So those thoughts that I have of wishing it was, are merely fleeting thoughts. I think it for a second, and then I move on.
I don't want it to be easy. I want to work. I want to be in that position where people say, "She makes it look easy." Because I will know what I put in to get there. I put the word choose in quotations when referring to this because I technically could have chosen to do something else. I would not have been happy if I didn't give this everything I have, because it chose me.

Suspense.
My next post will be after I have a couple new experiences this coming week. Leaving you in suspense! Be open to opportunities. I have in my mind a vision of what I want to do, but the key to that is that it changes every day. I will always be open to what comes my way. Change throws us for a loop sometimes but it sure as hell can be fun.

Much love,

Emily

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